i'll be there

Bad bad weekend~

2010-01-27T00:05:00.002+08:00

had a really bad weekend~~ seriously.. sometimes u just wonder.. how bad can things be.. and guess what.. it just got worst...

loss 70 dollars in mj...

thinking nothing could be worst..

went out and realised that i just got a ticket for parking my car at "No parking" lot..

50 dollars for that ticket...

Priceless: Offense "failure to obey road sign "No parking""

lol.. i am so so broke this month man~

thank god its new year and birthday next month..

COME ON~! THROW WHAT U HAVE IN STALL AT ME BEFORE FEB STARTS!!

hmmm... if possible.. dont throw k~

reminded that i actually have a blog~

2010-01-11T00:40:00.002+08:00

haha.. like the title suggested.. i was reminded by my gf that i ACTUALLY have a blog..

so i guess i might as well just post something here..

judging from the last entry to my tagbox.. i guess i dont have any readers anymore.. but.. who cares.. lol~ its MINE blog.. haha.. i will just post as and when i want.. haha...

first of all.. HAPPY NEW YEAR!! hmmm.. not CNY.. i mean a real new year~ 2010~

2009 went by really fast.. before i realise.. its already over.. hmmm..

i guess its always fast.. cos the time u take to recall all the memory in 2009 is definitely faster than the actually time pass.. i dont know if u understand what i am say.. i mean.. thinking back... is faster...

stepping into 2010.. havent set my new year resolution yet.. will get it done soon..

haha.. i cant help but mentioning.. recently been playing alot of mj.. actually just came back from one session with my gf aunt.. won.. 60 dollars.. lol.. that increase our winning steak of 400 plus? haha.. i am not sure.. well done.. keep it up.. haha

looking back~

2009-07-10T01:42:00.003+08:00

wow.. it has been ages since i last blog.. hmmm.. in a blink, the holiday is half gone!

hmmm.. i guess to be positive, i should say there is still half left of our holiday..

erm.. both seems quite sad to me.. sob.. cos no matter how i say it.. sch opening is drawing closer and closer..

lots happened to me.. since the day i last blog.. was it after my trip to bintan or not... hmmm..

anyway.. my trip to bintan was SUPER fun.. can it be counted as a honeymoon? ha.. the sea was CLEAR.. i really mean clear.. i can see where i am stepping on in the sea.. can u believe it.. we had our own private pool outside our villa.. we had ppl coming to our pouch to bbq for us.. ha!

oh ya! i took off my braces on the 1st of july. YEAH! but when i thought thats the end of my torture, there comes the retainer.. my goodness.. its more irritating than the braces.. only good point.. it can be taken off.. whahahaa.. i am not wearing them now.. i know i know.. i will put them on soon..

yesterday was my 4th month anni with my baby.! yeah.. had a really great time with u..

a good relationship brings out the best in u..

heard that from someone.. hmm.. dont really remember who..

hmmm...

2009-06-08T16:22:00.002+08:00

wow.. so long nv update.. looking back at my previous posts, its a totally different me.. cos.. EXAMs ARE OVER!!

ha.. so many things have changed.. hmmmm.. so many things happened.. but i am so lazy to blog about them, and i am on the phone...

so~

i am alive~

guess that sums up everything? ha

one word

2009-04-16T23:07:00.000+08:00

Stress

sudden surge of emotions

2009-04-06T11:10:00.003+08:00

hmm.. as i was preparing to leave home for another self study session.. had a suddenly surge of emotions.. that i just need to get it off my chest..

To those.. who saw me as i am.. who held on to me when i am falling.. who laugh with me when i am glad.. who stood by me when standing was not easy for me..

i didn't forget..

i won't forget...

don't worry.. i am fine.. better than fine now actually.. just bi guan-ing.. not dead.. trying to find a better self within.. trying to look at myself and see what needs improving, what needs to go...

nv had so much time on my own..

u people out there.. if u really find it hard to keep up with the pace of reality, or if u find it hard to love someone.. its time for u to start falling in love with urself..

once u learn and know how to love urself the way u should be loved, its not hard to find the one that can love u the way u want to be loved..

ha.. abit chim huh.. just try to keep up ya.. hee..

kk.. need to go study le.. haiz......

AH MENG.. my cousin

2009-03-21T09:56:00.006+08:00

hmmm.. recently.. i am glad to realise that my beloved cousin is reading my blog..

hmm.. so i am going to dedicate this entry to him..

now i will start off by giving a brief introduction about him..

Name : Desmond Goh (aka Ah Meng, aka Malay boy, aka sausage boy, aka handsome *this one add to make him happy only..* )

Age : 22 this year

BDay : 11 August'87

Status : Single.. *idk counted not.. ex gf can come stay, slp, play MJ at his house.. hmm.. don't know what youngster nowadays thinking.. so complicated.. anyway.. just try ur luck, u nv know maybe he will like u? hmmm.. oh ya.. please be 24 years and older.. he prefer older women.. thanks..

Hobbie : pool, swim, bowling, badminton, Sing song..*its ur loss if u haven't heard him sing.. POWER!.. of cos.. i am kidding~ -_-

Location : West side of Singapore.. *please contact me for his exact address.. please take note a small admin of 20SGD will be charged though.

Favourite Passtime : queueing at poly clinic.. *he really REALLY enjoy it.. u should see the passion in his eyes when he is queueing.. no one comes close...

Contact no. : 812766** *please contact me for the last 2 digit.. please note that a small admin charge of 0.5SGD will be charged though.

hmmm.. even though he has been training hard and secretly in bowling and badminton, trying to win me, he nv came close.. sometimes.. u really need to have abit of talent.. just like me.. ^^

hope after this brief introduction, u all will get a better and closer...

any interested applicants.. please send me a copy of ur particular and a picture of ur CURRENT self.. please don't send those that u look really good.. but actually its already 100 years ago.. i will get back to u if u are qualified.. thanks..

NO REPLY MEANS.. U ARE UGLY, OLD, DISGUSTING AND NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR HIM!! so please don't bug me and ask me why so long nv reply.. i can't say this to a girl face to face.. so don't put me in a difficult position..

thanks for ur time.. ^^

Feedbacks~~

2009-02-24T11:14:00.003+08:00

haha.. i am receiving negative feedback about my lack of updates.. hmmm.. ok ok.. here i am blogging again~~

hmmm.. where should i start...

Jong Won is back in Singapore! haha.. came to yoguru.. thank goodness i wasn't there at that time, i quited! hee.. or else i think i would have dug a hole just to hide my face.. had the shock of my life when my when my colleague suddenly called me.. "hey qi! i saw ur Ex Girlfriend! She came to look for you!" -_-

hmmm.. what else.. exam coming~~ prelims.. stressed.. trying hard to focus on my studies.. no more fooling around weiqi!!

hmmm.. studying econs, POA and PBF is like a traffic jam to me.. moving so slowly.. when can i ever finish revising them? haiz~~ i need help.. gonna search for help.. i must!

err....

i love sashimi!

hmmm...

oh ya! my car is brand new now! haha.. after that tiny accident, that guy paid for my repairs.. and the uncle of that shop, being a super nice guy, repaired the other damages on my car as well! haha.. so happy so happy.. even the one that i knocked when i just got my license..

oh ya!! and i am no more a "triangle" driver!! yeah!! time flies, its already been a year since i got my license.. such a eventful year for me..

my sister failed twice her driving test.. haiz.. omg omg.. thats like 600 dollars already~ hmmm.. what can i do with 600 dollars.......... alot.. haha!

life is such an amazing thing..

when u expect something to come, it nv comes, but when u least expected it, here it comes knocking~~ *knock knock.... whose there? haha.. omg! i am so lame! *slap slap

i am so thankful~

a picture speaks a thousand words

2009-02-10T11:22:00.004+08:00

happy birthday.. ^^

2009-02-10T02:30:00.002+08:00

hmmm.. wow.. it seems that i really not been updating.. ha~ sorry.. life been.. busy..

hmmm.. accident.. birthday.. stressed for upcoming prelims.. parties.. chinese new year.. dad came and go.. about there..

ha.. when there are really so many things happening, it became really hard to keep track.. will try to upload some pic in the morning later.. ha. for now.. its time to join shine shine to slp.. hee...

saw 2 of my friends in sch today.. hand in hand.. ha.. the moment they saw me, shocked.. let go.. so cute.. kk.. if u all still don't wanna make it public, i shall not list any names. hee.. so sweet..

love is an amazing thing.. isn't it..

torture

2009-01-29T17:12:00.002+08:00

had the weirdest dream yesterday night.. hmm.. why would i dreamt about that? about what u told me in the dream..

affected my whole day..

depressed...

HAPPY CNY~~

2009-01-29T01:33:00.004+08:00

hmmm.. got some feedbacks about my lack of updates.. haha.. for the first time, faced the crisis of losing some of my very few selective readers.. haha.. better do something about it.. thats why.. here i am again.. hmm.. after like..... so long..

anyway..

chinese new year...

drinking.. alot..

majong..

poker..

gaming..

lack of sleep.. and u...

family..

hmm.. this should sum up what happened other the last few days..

eh...

2009-01-19T09:27:00.002+08:00

Heard this song from my friend's blog.. quote this interesting phrase from the song~

Not that I don't care about you
Just that things got so complicated
Eh eh

All I can say is eh eh

sometimes... its so true huh.. hmmm.. what am i talking about? ha.. just some really really random thoughts..

steak and wine~

2009-01-19T01:44:00.002+08:00

hmmmm....

lazy....

sleepy.. hee...

other time k~ night!

Update (19/1/2009)

hmmm.. finally got the time to fill in this blog entry.. haha.. was so tired yesterday.. didn't really feel like doing anything.. hmmm..

Sat.. Mandy's 21st BIRTHDAY! ha.. GREAT PARTY! hee.. cos of the food maybe.. really love the steak! BEST! should have more.. hmmm.. maybe 2 portion? whahahaa.. finally tried steak with wine.. YUP! they served wine there too! RED red wine.. hmmm.. heard that red wine goes well with steak.. 2 hands UP!!

Sun.. Family day!! decided to be a nice good boy and spend some time with my family.. lunch with mum.. still went out FOR A WHILE in the evening.. hmmm... hard to stay home the whole day.. but was a really relaxing day~~ love it

Prelims coming...

damn~

delusional

2009-01-16T01:06:00.005+08:00

have u ever meet ppl who are so in their own world.. that even though what they did was obviously wrong, they still confidently think and speak as though they are right?!

had a really relax day at home.. tried out this new online game that meng intro.. yet he didn't play.. watch don't know what house of greed 2.. some drama..

after that its work for me.. hmmm. today i was a really good boy.. never brought any cubee-art to make at work.. instead i brought my PBF assignment.. and i am amazed.. i managed to finish it..

guess i am not having enough rest recently.. today i kept feeling that i am not in my body.. kept feeling like i am another person watching myself doing what i am doing.. hmmm.. ANYONE understands what i am trying to say here?

kk.. back to those really delusional ppl.. after work, i accompanied my sis to one of her tuition kid's house to "collect" her pay.. that !@#$# dragged payment for months already.. about 400 plus dollars..

when we arrived, the lights were off, window tightly shut... at first we knock gently on the door.. for about 10 mins.. no one answered.. pissed*

knock on the door too soft i guess.. went for the window instead.. hmmm.. quite satisfied with the noise it created.. neighbour all came out to watch whats going on.. and we wasted no time explaining to them..

finally that @!#$$#!@# opened the door.. let us in.. talked to us a hell lot of bullshit.. i am really tired to blog it all down.. i just managed to calm down, don't want to be enraged again..

anyway.. he promised us payment on monday night.. he better comes out with the money.. or else... call police.. hee..

don't mess with my family members.. cos i will get really upset.. u won't like it when i am upset..

new addition~

2009-01-14T00:40:00.003+08:00

wow.. didnt know that hello kitty is so difficult to make~~ hmmm.. but quite happy that it looks good.. its meant as a gift.. so.. must be of a higher standard then those that i made for myself.. hope she will like it~ ^^

here are some pics of them..

happy healthy day~!

2009-01-12T22:54:00.003+08:00

hmmm.. what a tiring day.. had lessons from 8.30am till 3pm.. stats is so easy! haha.. hmmm.. principle of accounting was alright.. there will be a test next week.. better start preparing..

after that decided to look from meng for a late lunch.. how i know he is such a pig! refused to wake up.. haha..

after that, we suddenly decided to play badminton~! aRG!! i cannot believe i actually lose to teddytubby!! i swear he must have taken some banned drugs!

healthy healthy!!

haha..

i was really happy this morning.. i ran out of jeans to wear.. out of desperation, i dug out the old jeans.. i fit in perfectly!! yeah!! hmmm.. i can save lots of money on new year clothing! hee~~

last few days.. i kept having the same dream over and over again.. God.. i beg u.. stop this.. stop torturing me..

updates

2009-01-11T13:49:00.003+08:00

haven't been blogging much recently.. was really overwhelmed by many things.. hmmm.. finally today is a day which i made effort to keep it free.. just gonna stay at home and get some rest which i been lacking so much..

some updates.. i quited my job.. yup.. the one at the yogurt stall at kallang leisure park. this month will be the last month i will be working there.. so u regular yogurt lovers, better get it from me before the job last.. haha.. hmmm.. i really cannot handle working and studying at the same time.. i need more time to concentrate on my studies.. at least i will not be spending my birthday working! hee.. will definitely miss the yogurt and friends there.. but they promise me free yogurt if i visit them still.. hee... YEAH!

yesterday went ktv with my cousin and friends.. cool.. nv met them for a very long time le.. saw my "daddy".. haha.. had a great time singing and dancing~ yup.. we danced.. haha.. thank god no one else is around and i think i danced the best among all.. we were crazy yesterday night~ sang all the way till about 3am this morning~ tired...

and i found my long lost pay cheque.. hee.. i thought i lost my pay cheque for the month nov.. when i asked from my boss for a replacement.. he bloody told me someone cash in the cheque already.. how can it be when i nv cash it in and i am the only person in the world that can. cos it bares my name.. anyway i didn't bother arguing with him and went on a mission to search for it.. finally found it in my car.. haha.. with my dec pay.. i got lots to spend for my new year!!

My new HOBBY!!

2009-01-10T00:04:00.003+08:00

hee.. recently i found myself a new hobby~

hmmmm.. but got alot of negative feedback... sob.. i don't find it childish.. cos do u know how hard it is to make one?!

felt that my effort was so not appreciated..

spent like 3 hours making my first one...

about 2 hours for the second...

and 1.5 hours for the third..

practice makes perfect!! hahahhaa...

more to come.. now there is only 3.. my next one will be a hello kitty(super cute.. gonna be a gift for someone) then black spiderman(thats for myself~ love it!).. then normal spider man(just so the black one won't feel lonely).. hmmmmm.. haven't planned what to planned after those 3... maybe ironman mark 2 armor.. since red ironman seems left out...

here are so pic of my BABIES!

new year

2009-01-02T03:31:00.003+08:00

new year..

hopes.. and i know.. there will.. be alot more better things to come..

let everything.. anything.. in the past.. stays in 2008.. don't bring any baggage over to 2009.. start afresh.. u can do it.. u have to do it.. we don't have a choice.. but sometimes.. not having a choice may not be a bad thing..

had a really great count down.. no pushing around in the crowds in town.. no fighting for cabs.. no excessive drinking.. ha.. i love it.. maybe i am too old for all these "youngster's activities".. hee..

hmmm.. really needs help for my econs.. i am dying just trying to understand.. less to say.. to master it.. haiz... HELP!

brand new year.. brand new me.. brand new...

do u realise what a year really means?

its the time needed for Earth to obit the Sun once.. so no matter how slow we are.. a year should be enough for us to move on right?

it must be enough.. it have to...

i don't deserve that

2008-12-28T12:52:00.007+08:00

finally i got my spects!!! woooo.. i am enjoying my new spects now.. hahahaha.. even though my degree isn't that bad.. but its still alittle blurry.. i am having perfect vision now!! another thing to add on about my spects.. is that its with Transition lens.. hee.. it will change the tone of the lens to the degree of brightness i am in.. wow.. hee.. don't find it weird that u see me looking at the sun in the next few days.. see it change is addictive!

i would rather that i didn't see her face to face.. its been about 8 months since we last saw each other.. glad that the short meeting is able to be within this year.. thanks for making it so clear for me..

i refused to be affected by how you treats me..

anyway, its 3 more days to a new year..

thats when everything will end..

thats a dateline i'll never push.. or miss.. i stood by her long enough.. long enough to be called a fool.. i never regretted a second.. but i think.. its long enough..

finally.. final stage.. Tattoo

No matter what you say about love,
I keep coming back for more,
My hand in the fire,
sooner or later I get what i'm asking for
No matter what you say about life,
I learn every time I bleed.
The truth is a stranger
My soul is in danger,
I gotta let my spirit be free to,
Admit that I was wrong and then change my mind.
Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind.

I can't waste time so give me the moment
I realize nothing's broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Lived every second like it was my last one.
Don't look back got a new direction
Loved you once, needed protection.
You're still a part of everything I do, you're on my heart just like a Tattoo,
Just like a tatto, I'll always have you.

I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking ties.
When I look in the mirror,
Didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could stop
Admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind.
Sorry but I gotta be strong and leave you behind

I can't waste time so give me the moment
I realize nothing's broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Lived every second like it was my last one.
Don't look back got a new direction
Loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do, you're on my heart just like a tattoo, I'll always have you.

If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me and you.
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything I do.

I can't waste time so give me the moment
I realize nothing's broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Lived every second like it was my last one
Don't look back got a new direction
Loved you once, needed protection.
You're still a part of everything I do, you're on my heart just like a tattoo.
Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you.

if pain is needed to grow, i thank u.. u will always be my heart's tattoo.. bye

merry christmas!

2008-12-25T03:21:00.003+08:00

WOW.. its finally Christmas.. ha.. so many ppl wished me, yet most of them i don't have their number.. hmmm.. thank you though~ ^^

hmmm.. i am really troubled recently.. what does life wants from me this time.. i am actually surprised at how lady luck is stuck with me.. i mean.. life was never this good to me.. please.. don't let all these be a reason for u to take away something from me.. i don't have much.. and this little left is what i really treasures..

hmmm.. let me be grateful..

1)i met many great friends.
2)i got free movie tickets and watched a great movie FOC.
3)i managed to get a break from work and school.
4)i am feeling so much better.
5)i don't really remember how she looks like.
6)shine shine is getting cuter.
7)my event is over and it was quite successful.
8)my sister broke up her bf and having so many better guys going after her.
9)i am enjoying my single hood.
10)i got a new phone for my room.
11)my lappy is working fine.
12)i am saving the world almost every night.
13)i lose weight (maybe a little too much..)
14)i won $260 on MJ last weekend.
15)i won $85 on MJ last 2 days.
16)i won $310 on Texas Poker today.(what a great Christmas gift!!)
etc....

arg!! nonono!!! life is being too nice.. something is happening soon is it? don't like that.. we can work something out ya? Mr Life.. hmmm.. i think u must be a lady.. sorry sorry.. (cos u are always unpredictable and... i better stop here...) Miss Life.. please.. don't take anything from me.. i don't have much left.. i really treasure everything in my life now..

warming-up-for-Christmas PARTY!!

2008-12-24T13:36:00.005+08:00

ha.. was really feeling very lazy yesterday.. and maybe due to the fact that i just recovered from my flu, i was not really in the mood for partying.. yet, in the end, i still gave in to Cecilia's constant and persistent invitation..

it was so last min, that i didn't even prepared a gift for the gift exchange for the gathering.. had to meet up with her at Plaza Sing to get one. its a Tues for goodness sake.. why were there so many people?!

i hate crowded places...

anyway, got a really cute present.. sob.. i was still hoping to get my own gift in the gift exchange.. haha.. too bad.. but still Darren's present is not bad.. haha..

we had 3 full bottles (2 absolute(40%) and 1 Smirnoff(50%))

we started off really slow.. everyone didn't wanted to drink much.. including me..

then Darren started getting emo.. and kept pulling us to drink with him.. in the end, i had like 10-12 shots. and we emptied the 3 bottles..

worst thing is.. i drove~

"Bartender for the day - Darren"

"i thought bartender wasn't suppose to be drinking while working? haha.. look at how happy he was.. he must be thinking of RuiRong!"

glad that u are safe and sound back in singapore~

Updates~

2008-12-23T14:54:00.006+08:00

hmmm.. was really sick during the past few days.. so didn't really bothered about blogging.. here are some updates~~

went to my sch bash.. woooo.. fun.. had lots to drink~ ppl just kept coming and offering their drinks.. hee..

"sob.. too bad my friend didn't win.. "

Steamboat at bugis!! yummy!! especially in cold weather like this..

"my secret recipe.. i am not going to tell.. nothing will taste as good without it!"

Can't wait for Christmas~

2008-12-21T20:42:00.001+08:00

3 more days to Christmas...

tasteless days~

2008-12-21T11:57:00.003+08:00

hmmm.. realised that i actually ate more when i am sick.. usually, only one meal a day.. yesterday i actually ate three! haha...

but.. sob.. i can't taste anything that i eat.. flu sucks...

my sister finally broke up with her bf le.. hopefully this is for real this time.. that bastard don't deserve her..

i don't know what that asshole means by "i don't like to let my friends know my gf de..".. my sister really that ugly that u are ashame to show ur friend?! or u are just trying to hide the fact that u are attached so u will have more chance with other girls? BASTARD

and whats with u only spending a few hours a week with my sister? and yet u got so much time to spend with ur friends.. if u bloody don't have time for a gf, then stay single..

my sister deserve so much better.. u hear me? u try anything fun.. i will be the one that say sorry to u..

suffering....

2008-12-20T02:15:00.006+08:00

finally fall sick... feels so bad.....

i hate being sick..

still i am praying for ur safety in genting

secret love affair

2008-12-18T13:57:00.004+08:00

tonight, our school bash and pageant will be held at Zouk, 8pm till late.. hee.. its been some time since i last club.. need to party

anyway... because of that, i am now working.. sob.. i swap shift with my friend so that i will be free at night for that event.. hmmmm.. morning shift is so so boring...

one major difference between morning and night shift.. i guess is the number of ice-skaters that buy yogurt.. i am surprised.. so many ice-skaters came to buy.. isn't it cold enough up there? if i were them, i think i would prefer some hot coffee or something hot.. haha..

3 more hours to end of my shift.. endure...

looking forward for tonight! yeah!

i am still praying for ur safety in genting..

final nail on the coffin

2008-12-17T20:03:00.008+08:00

such a tiring day.. had econs in the morning.. and just because i missed one lecture last week.. i am totally lost today.. i seriously don't understand a thing that she is trying to teach.. something about open and close economy.. something about how current account must be in deficit in order for investment to be positive.. and blah blah blah..

the worst thing is actually the formula.. its like a bunch of letters just get together and they expect u to remember and make sense out of it.. wth.. being a science student, i really need to know how and why!

thank you Veron.. for passing me the stats assignment to me today.. haha.. well done! u are early for school today.. haha.. but there is still alot of catching up to do.. cos i am always early.. *proud

rushed home to take a nap after sch.. really really tired.. woke up at 4.50pm for work.. ops.. haha.. anyway its so near to my house.. hmph...

thank goodness dewn was here to work with me.. at least its not that unbearable.. so jealous.. that she can go off at 7pm. sob.. go enjoy the christmas lights in town!.. hmmm.. one and a half hour more to go home.. YEAH!

i need something to drink tonight..

while clearing a horrible mess left behind by this family with 2 young child, something strike me..

the mess was so horrible.. yogurt on the table, chair and floor.. tissue everywhere.. toppings everywhere.. that sight just totally turn me away.. first thought..

"how am i suppose to clear this mess.. i don't even know where to start for goodness sake.."

but i didn't have a choice.. reluctantly, i started clearing.. made countless trips back and forth to the dustbin and the sink.. finally i am greeted by a clean table..

hmmm.. it got me wondering.. if we can just start clearing up the mess in my life, a step at a time, one by one, little by little.. we may be able to clear the mess.. hmmm... many a times.. like most people, we were turn off the moment we set eyes on our mess.. without trying, we gave up..

how about trying this out..

LETS START!

i pray for ur safety in genting...

feeling lazy

2008-12-16T19:20:00.007+08:00

hmmm.. who likes working right? or is it just me? i really struggled to come to work today.. practically dragged myself here.. thank god for xiao hui.. she was the one that really dragged me here.. ^^

i am so so lazy right now!!!

so lazy to even take my own lappy out.. decided to just use the one thats left in the store by our boss.. of cos its not as good as mine.. hee... ^^

hmmm.. i am wondering what happened to "aunty".. called her twice yesterday.. didn't even bother to return my call.. just called her again just now.. also never pick up... hmmmmm... something must have happened.. i think...

we were suppose to come out of that shit hole together.. we did.. i chose not to return.. u chose to turn back..

but like we say.. this time may be different.. the shit hole may not be as shitty as before.. but whatever outcome is.. don't regret your decision.. u chose this path.. then don't complain.. jia you!

always remember.. it will get better in time.. spent so much effort to help u make ur blog.. u just delete it like that.. thanks huh!

add on

jung called me today.. she is leaving.. for Korea..

its been about a month since we last spoken.. the fault doesn't lies with u.. i really don't know what i was doing too.. i know i hurt u bad.. i really didn't mean it.. i am really really sorry

really appreciate it that u bothered to call me.. to tell me that u are leaving.. its winter over there.. remember to keep urself warm..

take care........

u will be missed

relationship needs to be maintained

2008-12-15T22:11:00.003+08:00

was consoling one of my friend yesterday night.. while i was trying to comfort her, it gets me thinking at the same time..

relationship is not a trophy. its not something that u fought for, won it, then shelf it.. it needs constant maintenance.. it needs to be constantly cared for.. constantly looked after..

both parties really need to put in the constant effort to fuel this relationship.. if only one side is doing this, it will never work out.. one should start off everyday by thinking how to make the other "fall in love" with u again.. don't take each other for granted.. never..

a small example.. sometimes my friends will ask me.. why are u still getting roses for your gf? roses are only for valentines day, and the period before u get together with your gf.. waste money now for what..

ha.. i feel that we should really treat our gal better after we got together with them.. because, after they become our gf.. they are now willing to stand by our side.. they are willing to share our pain, sorrow, happiness.. they are willing to play a part in our life.. we should really appreciate that..

a small tip.. no girl hates flowers.. even if they feel that its not practical, some may say its a waste of money.. deep inside.. they won't mind getting one.. studies show that.. girls prefer getting flowers in front of their friends.. YUP! do something to surprise your GF soon~ (of cos.. don't do it if the girl is not your gf and she made it clear that she don't want to complicate things.. that i can't be sure if she will be happy or not)

guys are bastards!

2008-12-15T00:05:00.004+08:00

haiz.. my sister quarrelled with her bf again. why can't guys appreciate their gf when they are by their side? why only when u lose them.. then u realise how important they are.. realise that u cannot live without them..

ALL GUYS ARE BASTARDS

don't make the same mistake that i made.. whats done is done.. but thats in my case.. u all still have a chance to make it all right.. u all still have the chance to tell them "i love u".. u all still have the chance to embrace them.. u all still have the chance to give them surprises.. still have the chance.....

i don't...

please.. any guy that read this.. please open ur eyes and see.. u love her... u really really do..

disappointed~

2008-12-13T18:18:00.006+08:00

haiz.. on fri.. i am left alone to clear up all the tables for the event.. 20 over tables.. and i am suppose to clear it all up alone.. sad~

the head of publicity (i am already giving u the respect not to name u), promised to help.. she did came.. but gave me such a FUCK up attitude.. just stand aside and watch.. i am so damn pissed.. keep standing there and just talk and talk.. STOP FLAPPING UR LIPS.. COS IT STINKS!

i was outside today.. the sky was bright and sunny.. but just a moment later.. dark clouds gathered.. strong wind taunted.. but yet.. that doesn't change as fast as how relationship changes..

hmmm.. want to show off my lappy picture capturing skill! haha.. so cool right.. didn't know that my lappy can do that.. here are some effects~~

its over finally

2008-12-11T12:52:00.007+08:00

my event has finally came to an end..

after months of planning, months of stress, months of pressure.. yesterday.. it all ended..

never felt so good for i don't know how long.. and i am so glad that it all went well.. i am sure most of them enjoyed..

had the sense of satisfaction when they came to shake my hands and thank me at the end of the tour...

even though we didn't have the time to really do everything that we planned, i felt it was just nice..

stay tuned for lots of picture and video of the event.. you will see.. that we really had fun..

though i was quite pissed that in the end, only a few of my members actually helped.. but who cares.. i don't need selfish people who are not willing to sacrifice a little of their time for the event.. even my 2nd IC wasn't there for even a day.. haha.. i am in awe..

and omg! i got my very first speeding ticket~ sob.. when i reached home, my dad was waiting~ DEAD~ immediately, i decided to adapt to my sister's secret weapon to escape when she gets into trouble with my dad..

IT WORKS!! i am still alive.. ha.. but.. sob.. but there goes 130 dollars and 4 points from my license.. damn.. stupid nicoll highway.. speed limit is 70km/h.. what kind of highway is that?! still dare name yourself "highway".. I HATE YOU!!!

but i am glad.. at least it means that those other time that i am speeding is not caught.. hee.. Shhhhhhhh... but after this expensive lesson, i will definiately drive alot alot slower.. hmmm.. may be.. haha..

and time flies, my dad is leaving for china today.. sob.. and i can't have dinner with him tonight due to my work.. sob.. sob.. didn't spend much time with him, due to my event and stuff.. sob.. now i am sad.. very sad..

"i don't really care what others say about you.. i like you the way you are.."

the day is tomorrow

2008-12-08T13:15:00.003+08:00

finally.. my event will starts tml.. so nervous, yet excited, at the same time stress, but relieve.. mixed emotions..

anyway.. after dragging for so long.. its finally going to be over soon.. this is the first time i tried planning something so big.. even though this is not the biggest event i took part in, but this is the biggest i am actually tasked to plan.. hope everything will turn out alright..

keep me in ur prayers..

thats what makes us human

2008-12-08T02:52:00.004+08:00

guess something that human possess that makes us humans is the ability to numb ourselves from the pain that we are feeling..

its proven that when we feel pain, our brain actually releases some kind of chemical to numb our senses..

if we feel a certain amount of pain for a long period of time, eventually.. it doesn't hurt that much anymore.. eventually..

yet.. actually.. the pain didn't decrease.. the only thing that changed is the amount of pain u are able to take..

no matter how bad something is, it happens for a reason.. maybe u might be wondering why did this happened to me.. why u... u might not see it now.. but time will show.. that everything happens for a reason..

it may be preparing u for something that might be worst in the future.. it might be there just so u can be able to take more pain in the future without being hurt that much..

when u felt extremely painful now.. u will realise that other pain that u suffered or suffering now.. is not that painful after all.. is not that painful anymore...

thus.. be grateful for the pain that u are feeling.. appreciate it.. instead of sinking urself into a state of self pity.. stand up.. hang on.. u are made for something greater than what u are going through..

trust me.. what doesn't kill u.. will definitely make u stronger.. if u are able to pull through this.. everything else won't be that hard anymore..

pain is needed to grow.. thats how we learnt to walk.. thats how we learnt to live.. thats how we learnt to adapt.. thats how we learnt to love..

sorry for listening to all these boring stuff thats in my mind.. i just hope this might encourage someone out there.. it will get better in time.. it will.. it must..

Daddy's home~

2008-12-07T02:58:00.004+08:00

yeah.. my dad finally came home to visit.. he is currently working overseas.. sob.. its really hard on my him to have to leave the comfort of his home just to provide for us.. thank you daddy...

went to fetch my dad from the airport, and bought my favourite Jelly Belly from the Cocoa Trees in the departure hall in terminal 3.. hee.. thats really something to look forward for when picking my dad.. hope all his flights in the future is in terminal 3!!

i know that my temper was not really that good recently.. so sorry.. was really stressed by my coming event.. and many other stuff.. thank you for being so understanding~

one bad thing about online shopping.. is the waiting time for the goods to arrive.. ARG~! can't wait to meet the t-shirts that i bought online face to face.. pictures can be deceiving u know.. maybe my t-shirts used his friend's picture instead of its own? hmmmm.. even humans do that.. i don't see why t-shirt won't do the same.. haha.. LAME!!

anyway. christmas is really drawing near.. so excited.. need to shop for gift le. not telling where and what i am buying.. *SURPRISE!!!

anyway.. my event is on the 9 and 10 dec.. its open to public.. so feel free to join us! we will be providing transport.. and all the food that u will be having, scroll down for anymore question,, hee..

i still love driving

2008-12-03T23:17:00.002+08:00

hmm.. another tiring day.. been in school since 8.30.. after a boring lecture of econs, have to attend to the booth from 11.30 till 3.30.. haiz.. free labour..

after that drove to work.. realised that i was early.. slept in my car for about half an hour.. hee.. thanks to the rain, it felt so warm and cosy in my car..

thank God for technology! without my lappy, i really don't know how am i going to survive my boring work~~ chat online most of the time.. and helped SOMEONE fixed her blog.. hee.. i am genius! though i nv took IT before, i am quite good at html commands... be grateful k.. the only person that i made blog for was my ex gf..

finally finished work.. on my way home.. suddenly i start to appreciate driving.. haha.. so used to driving that i totally took it for granted.. guess thats human.. always taking things that are so freely available for granted.. only to know that u cannot live without it after losing it.. hee.. fortunately, i learnt it before losing my car.. HOPE i will nv lose it~~

while driving home, the DJ on the radio played some christmas songs.. like what she says.. christmas songs never fails to bring a smile on anyone's face.. i can't help it.. but smile...

STALKER~~!!!

2008-12-03T14:07:00.003+08:00

for my loyal readers~ something really "interesting" happened today... half way doing my booth, i receive this sms out of no where...

below is the exact sms i received.. not a single word added or taken out..

"Hi... I think u look cute. Could we like catch up some time aft u'r done organising..? Later I'll be at ur booth. Come say hi to me if u want alrites?! I'm wearing black and my hair's gold... ^^"

this gay/girl is stressing me out.. i don't mind if a girl comes up to me and say that.. i am used to that.. whahahaha.. kk.. but not like these!! now i am super sensitive to girls with gold hair and in black outfit.. i bet its a GAY!

keep me in ur prayers~~ keep u all updated~~

i must be dreaming~

2008-12-02T19:52:00.002+08:00

so bored!! working now.. but due to the rain, there is really not many people craving for a ice cold yogurt.. i guess thats why starbucks and coffee bean on both side of me are "enjoying" the crowd.. hee.. the part-timers must be cursing and swearing.. whahahahah!!!

i hope it rains everyday.. enjoy this quiet time alone in the shop.. hmmm.. damn.. i am addicted to online shopping~~ sob.. such a sinful hobby.. but i manage to get some t-shirts that i really wanted.. sob.. somemore my beloved mother destroyed my favourite headphone design t-shirt.. SOB~~~~

now i finally got some really nice ones.. i rarely buy clothes.. so i guess its ok ba~~ right?

Devil weiqi:this is a very very good excuse wei qi.. continue giving this excuse and u will see xiao hui parking downstairs for the rest of the month.. go.. go shop some more..

SHUT UP DEVIL WEI QI.. so sarcastic.. go back to hell..

damn.. split personality.. thats what happens when u have too much time at work.. whahahhahaa.. playing with kitkat.. folding roses.. taking random pics... stare at ppl walking by.. wave at random ppl.. i love this job!

sob.. this week really overspent.. first i bought this 80 dollars stuff online.. at least i didn't regret it.. then i bought alot of snacks.. er.. worth it la.. then i bought my shirts~ sob.. all at least 80 above.. my god.. work harder!!!!!!!

i must be dreaming.. did i actually saw someone i nv seen in more then half a year.. hee.. anyway.. i am glad...

is it the online shopping or my dream encounter that made me feels so good? i am confused.. hope this feeling will last.. nah.. it won't.. hee.. i know it won't.. who cares... as long as i am feeling it now.. who cares how long it last.. ^^

in the month of Christmas~

2008-12-02T10:10:00.002+08:00

wow.. its already DEC! haha.. time flies.. really.. someone told me yesterday.. thats its a brand new week and a brand new month~ yup... lets hope its true for u and me k! haha..

yesterday was really tired.. thats why in the end didn't blog.. was at the booth the whole day.. responds was better than fri.. and a few groups of ppl already pre-booked places for the food tour.. yeah!!

i am so much better now~

human rampage!

2008-11-30T22:42:00.006+08:00

my goodness.. why did i ever promise to go to the IT fair at expo?! haha.. i should have known what was awaiting me over there.. ARGH... so so so many people!!

haha.. too bad i didn't have the adaptor to allow me to transfer pictures into my computer.. i can show u.. its really human rampage!

even guys need to queue for toilet! my goodness.. haha.. i can't help but laughed at those people queueing.. can't they make their way to another less crowded toilet just a few hall away? haha.. i just refused to queue for toilet.. hee.. cos i always make fun of my girl friends about queueing.. ops..

in the end, we didn't get anything.. hmmm.. felt that this IT fair wasn't as good as the previous one.. or maybe cos i was looking for something the previous time, and this time, just to company..

good night~! i had a great time today!

Better in time...?

2008-11-30T04:12:00.000+08:00

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the past
I believe it
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

Feeling so much BETTER ^^

2008-11-29T21:53:00.002+08:00

hee.. i am feeling so much better~ just brought Shine down for a walk.. but this time, i am really not sure if its Shine that walked me.. or i walked him..

it doesn't matter.. all that mattered, was that i felt so much better after the walk.. had the quiet time i needed to sort out my thinking.. why am i so pissed.. why am i so upset.. compared to the things thats happening around me.. compared to the things that happened in the past.. compared to the things that might happen, what i am facing now is really nothing~

looking up at the cloudy sky.. makes me feel so small.. looking at the huge clouds slowly pass the sky.. hmmm.. what am i compared to the world.. makes me feel so tiny.. made my problems smaller~

"hey life.. u need to do more than that.. alot more than these to bring me down.. hee.. don't so hardworking la.. enough le.. enough le.. let me stand on my feet alittle longer k?"

disappointed~

2008-11-29T16:42:00.005+08:00

finally life is being fair to me again.. yeah~! when there is up, there will be down.. fair and square..

hmmm.. where should i start.. ha.. too many le.. really hard to start..

kk.. yesterday i sat at the publicity booth for my event.. from 11 till 3... no one sign up.. NOT A SINGLE ONE.. sob.. i was told that this is expected for the first day.. but still.. i am really disappointed..

next.. had a bad quarrel with someone.. i was trying to find an excuse to sms her.. she didn't take it quite well.. whatever la~

last but not lease, a member of my food fiesta commitee decided to quit.. giving the reason that this event is taking too much of her time.. thus affecting her studies..

i am seriously very disappointed in her.. by quitting, u are running away.. in life, if a challange is thrown at u, jolly well stand strong and finish it.. don't just because its getting tougher then u start considering quitting.. that thought should not even be in ur mind.. how can u achieve anything in life when at the back of ur mind u are always thinking of quitting?

but i am really pissed.. its not only her thats helping.. i agree that there's really very few working members. but the rest of us who stayed are trying really hard.. and u just quit.. nowadays thats what they are preaching in church huh... u are being damn selfish let me tell u.. but i won't stop u from quitting this time, cos i really don't wish to work with someone like u.. disgusted

good morning ^^

2008-11-28T10:14:00.002+08:00

haha.. in sch now.. haiz.. the math lecture is so boring! i mean the stuff they teach is really so fundamental.. ARGH~ keep falling asleep~

so guilty.. yesterday game till so late.. but thats not the reason that i keep failing asleep in class k.. its really cos the lesson is SO boring~ so mum.. please don't read this and send me threat sms-s~~

going to prepare for the first day of publicity for my event.. don't know how will the responds be.. i hope sim students really love food.. haha~~

feeling so much better this few days.. thanks to u~ yeah u~ er... u over there.. the one staring at the boring computer screen with "first love" playing at the background.. yup.. u.. haha..

wish me luck~ i think i really need it.. though i feel really lucky recently.. everything has been going really smooth for me.. too smooth to be true.. ARGH.. hope its not to prepare me for a greater fall huh.. please la~~ i fell enough le~ fell until sianz le.. so please spare me this once.. er... actually i very greedy de.. spare me FOREVER!!! haha...

yesterday Dewn challenged me to a dare.. "Lets randomly wave to 10 people" the first to complete the dare wins, and the loser have to do a forfeit.. whahahaha.. please.. such a friendly guy like me. how to lose at this kind of thing de... i must say.. u danced well.. whahahaha.. not bad.. at least u are game enough to fulfill ur forfeit.. hee... too bad ur dance barely lasted for 3 sec~ my loss.. ha.. more dare next time k~ ^^

and i am amazed~ u are good at the game man! i am really surprised that girls can be THAT good at such games.. hmmmm.. u open up my pretty eyes.. ^^

kk.. enough of blogging.. time to start preparing my booth.. going to sit there till my next lesson.. ARG~ boring~~ ;(

another 4am entry

2008-11-27T04:00:00.004+08:00

its 4am.. and i am still not sleeping.. hmmm.. not feeling well le.. should rest more ma.. i know i know.. but can't sleep...

work was not as boring today.. hee.. brought ribbons.. started making roses.. i am quite good at it u know.. ha~ below are some pic of the roses i make.. my hp cam is not really that great..

got cheated off 80 dollars today.. sob.. didn't know this item that i bought is actually in usd.. ar.. heart pain. thats like my 1 week pay.. ARGH!!

nvm.. hope i will like the stuff that i bought.. as long as its worth it.. i think its alright...

starting my publicity for my event really soon.. TIRED~ i really really want to take a break from all these.. after my event, i am going to give myself a long long deserved break~ hmmmm.. Wei Qi.. u can do it de!!

cycled to work today again~ yeah! i really enjoyed it.. but really scare to cross the bridge at night.. sob.. whenever i cross the bridge, it nv fails to make my hair stands.. and i swear i always hear footsteps.. but there was no one behind~ weird.. scary!!!

i will get use to walking that path alone.. i must

to aunty and myself,
be strong k~ jia you!

Cycling in the rain~

2008-11-26T00:05:00.006+08:00

what a sad day.. and i am finally glad that i am affected by other reason other then the usual one.. maybe this is a sign that i finally moved on? hmmmm...

Jung won told me today will be last day that she will be working.. because she is returning to Korea really soon.. mixed emotions overwhelmed me.. should i be happy.. cos i know i can't be the one that give her the happiness that she deserves.. or should i be sad.. that this may be the last time i am seeing her..

memories flooded my mind.. how the first time we met... etc.. i didn't talk much the whole time working with her.. only manage to pluck some courage to converse with her about some really random issues.. trying hard to avoid the topic about her leaving..

time seems to pass really quickly.. and soon.. its time to leave.. our last walk to her house.. still i didn't talk much.. what do u expect me to say? its all my fault for landing both of us into this state..

"this may be the last time i am walking u home.." i manage to blur out..

today is the first time i didn't walk her home to her door step.. hope u understand.. i don't want to see u leaving from behind..

rain can never be as in time as how it came today.. it started raining really heavily..

as we grow up.. we always tend to forget what really makes us happy.. i forgot how much i love the rain.. today.. i am reminded.. cycling in the rain..

the beauty about soaking urself in the rain.. is that u don't know whats on ur face.. is it the rain, or is it ur tears.. and as the cold droplets of rain hit u.. it makes u realise how warm u are.. making u realise that u are actually living..

i will miss u.. even though i promised that we will have our last meal before u leave for Korea.. i am sorry.. i lied.. cos.. i don't deserve that...

Finally~

2008-11-25T17:41:00.003+08:00

finally.. we are getting somewhere.. other meetings have always been planning, planning and still planning.. today.. we are finally doing.. great effort GUYS! hee.. i love U ALL SO MUCH! i am a shy guy.. hee.. so don't expect to hear this coming from my mouth..

anyway.. u guys are really evil~ seriously.. just looking and imagining the food for the Xtreme eater is already enough to make me feel like vomiting.. ARGH.. how are the competitors going to eat all that shit! haha.. guess that's the price they need to pay to get the attractive cash prize! haha...

so tired.. after meeting, rushed home for a half an hour nap.. really cannot resist the comfort of my lovely bed.. die die also must sleep for awhile.. hee.. hey.. but i still manage to report for work ON TIME! yeah~!! sob.. today is washing machine day~ means i only end work really really late~ sob... sob..

hmmmm.. to those ppl who are walking pass my stall.. u might think that u are window shopping me.. haha.. but actually.. u all are on this conveyor belt.. moving across my eyes! hee.. kk.. i am being random~

argh.. i am peeling.. but its so tempting to peel off those dry skin.. feels so good.. don't know why.. i just can't stop~! haha.. got scolded by alot of ppl le.. SORRY.. when it happens on u all.. u will understand how i am feeling.. ^^

aunty.. please don't make things difficult for me.. i can't force u to tell me anything.. and i hope u give me back the same respect as well.. what u need to know i will definitely tell u.. but the rest.. they really don't really concern u.. please understand.. if u're angry with me just because i cannot kiss and tell.. then i really nothing to say.. no matter what.. hope u recover too.. it'll all get better in time! remember that k..

DAMN~

2008-11-25T10:37:00.004+08:00

damn it.. almost didn't sleep last night and now i have to rush to sch for my event preparation.. arG!! better don't blog anymore.. gonna be later.. hope don't have to speed later.. hate to speed.. best is take extreme left lane all the way.. safety always come first right? hee... wish me all the best in today first preparation for my event.. hope my committee will be working hard.. JIA YOU JIA YOU JIA YOU!! WEI QI U CAN DO IT DE~~!! YEAH!! haha.. -___-

don't be afraid..

2008-11-24T22:55:00.003+08:00

don't be afraid.. like how u were there for me.. i will be there for u too~ ^^ hope from my example, u can see.. pain is needed to grow~ what doesn't kills u will only makes u stronger...

dedicate this song to u.. which really encouraged me in the past.. even now..

Stop crying ur heart out
Hold up
Hold on
Dont be scared
Youll never change whats been and gone

May your smile (may your smile)
Shine on (shine on)
Dont be scared (dont be scared)
Your destiny may keep you warm

Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
Youll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Get up (get up)
Come on (come on)
Whyre you scared? (Im not scared)
Youll never change
Whats been and gone

Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
Youll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
Youll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Were all of us stars
Were fading away
Just try not to worry
Youll see us some day
Just take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out

eng translation for "First Love"

2008-11-24T15:15:00.003+08:00

First Love

The last kiss tasted like tabacco
the bitter and sad scent
tomorrow at this time
where whould u be? who would u be thinking of?
You will always gonna be my love
even if i fall in love again with someone some day
i'll remember to love u taught me how
you will always gonna be the one
now its still a sad love song
until i can sing a new song

the time that had stopped seems to start moving
just all the things i don't want to forget
tomorrow at this time
i'll surely be crying
probably thinking of you
you will always be inside my heart
since there will always be the place for you
i hope that i have a place in your heart too
now and forever you are still the one
now its still a sad love song
until i can sing a new song

you will always gonna be my love
even if i fall in love again with someone some day
i'll remember to love you taught me how
you will always gonna be the one

Back~!

2008-11-24T14:39:00.003+08:00

Sorry for my pms last night~ hee.. emotions~ hmmm.. u can't see them, can't hear them, can't touch them.. yet.. they are so real.. hmmmm...

anyway.. woke up early for morning lecture today~ POA.. quite interesting today.. but still, i had a difficult time keeping myself awake for the whole lecture~ and i made a very shocking discovery!!

BLACKIE IS ATTACHED~!!

haha.. damn.. nv tell me.. suddenly just tell me u attached le.. hmmmm.. its not hard to find one.. like i say.. but its really hard to find one u truely love.. blackie.. don't keep changing le~ stick to one and nv ever let go k! haha.. and don't ask me anyhow go try one.. haha.. this kind of thing cannot try de... but once i found my love, don't worry.. i will nv let go.. for now.. its still searching for me.. my princess is someone out there!! haha..

oh.. recently i am really interested in this lady.. woooo.. beauuuuutiiiifuuuulll.. haha.. mature.. hee.. went to a great meal with her.. i don't really know whats her name.. but i always call her "grandmother" very dearly.. haha.. don't be jealous k~~

some pic of my current love and pic of my "interesting" POA lecture~

thanks for the pain~

2008-11-24T00:19:00.004+08:00

sorry.. i don't feel like writing anything today.. sad*

Our event~

2008-11-23T15:24:00.001+08:00

Happy 8th month to me~

2008-11-22T03:47:00.006+08:00

time flies.. its already 8 month since.. i am still alive! ha.. more 8 months to come~ np.. what doesn't kill u only makes u stronger.. yup yup ^^

wow.. its already 4am.. hmmm.. had a busy day.. felt quite down today.. when i was reminded that its the 21st of the month again.. but can't let it stops me from living my life the way it should be..

had lesson from 8.30am till 3pm... then a great and fruitful meeting with my committee members.. hope our event "2xtreme" will turn out as how we imagine it to be..

after that went to celebrate Kaili's birthday.. hmmm.. not that bad.. felt really weird at first.. i am the only guy.. ha.. but we had fun~

this will be the first Christmas i am with my driving license and without u.. only realised that when i was driving down orchard road.. the lights.. beautiful~ but without u by my side.. Christmas is coming.. though all i want for Christmas is u.. i know Santa is not real.. ha~ this is my first Christmas in many without u in my life.. how will it be.. i don't know.. but i am still really excited about it.. felt that there is a reason for Christmas to be on the last 5th day of the year.. its to remind u to let go of ur burden of this year and move on to the next.. 5 days for u to prepare a list of resolutions for the new year to come..

hee.. since its the 21st of the month, i can spoil myself by allowing me to say somethings that should not be said.. not in my public blog at least~

I MISS U.. i really really do~ hee... kk.. enough! slap slap slap* bloody loser~ haha.. once a month only k qi.. once a month~

here are some random pics i took today.. enjoy more on my facebook, which offers faster and effective uploads~

FUN~!

2008-11-20T23:36:00.002+08:00

wow.. i nv had so much fun for a long long long long.... time.. hee.. actually its really nothing much.. just played around with the kitkat.. but its enough to make me THAT happy.. guess i am quite pathetic huh.. haha.. who cares~

today i cooked maggi mee!! added seaweed from KOREA! really really nice.. hee.. THANKS JUNG WON~ yeah!! finally i am taking 2 meals a day if that counts.. and i still manage to finish my dinner~ hmmmmmmm.. don't want to drop below 57kg.. JIA YOU WEI QI~~~

here are some preview of my master piece.. for more pic.. plz go to my facebook acc.. haha..

as long as u're ok

2008-11-20T11:56:00.006+08:00

all i need.. is just to know that u're alright.. i will never abuse this tiny little right i have as a friend.. don't worry..

bye

let me be

2008-11-19T22:46:00.005+08:00

i don't know whats right.. whats wrong..
i don't know whats too close, whats too far..
i don't know whats too much, whats too little..
i don't know what i should do, and what i should not..
i don't know what i should ask, what i should just keep quiet..
i don't know what i should give, what i should not..
i don't know what i should say, what i should just leave it to silence..

i just want to do what i felt i should..

everything i do.. i got scolded.. stupid, silly, dumb and crazy.. whats new.. but is it wrong to follow what my heart tells me to do?

this is the first time.. i really don't know how to handle.. i am so used to run away.. but this time.. all i want.. is just to stay.. no matter how painful it is.. no matter how stupid it might seem.. no matter how hopeless it is.. please.. let me be..

thank you for all ur concern.. trust me on this.. i won't regret this..

Healthy lifestyle~~

2008-11-19T17:43:00.003+08:00

hee.. this week is a healthy healthy week~ just went sentosa on sunday, and today i went to play badminton with my cousin~ so tiring.. even though only played for an hour, but he kept wanting to win me.. and he nv give up trying.. in the end played like 9 matches in 1 hour.. back to back.. so tired....

played till about 4pm.. talk and drink for about half an hour, and then i have to rush to work again... sob...

today had econs in the morning.. my goodness.. so boring and hard!! if its dry, its still ok... its dry and difficult to understand! so i decided to try a new learning method.. since today we were taught that when income increases, our spending increases too.. i must experience this point to learn it! hee..

so i drove to parkway parade to try it out.. hmmm.. went to get my favourite food.. SASHIMI!! hee.. then got my favourite drink.. passion red tea.. yeah... i finally understnads what econs is trying to teach.. hmmm... really need to pamper myself abit.. give myself a pat on the back... its really a hard period of time for me.. hmmmmm... while enjoying my passion red tea, i decided to help my friend check out the iphone prices.. hope u get it soon.. but its only 2 maga pixel.. and for someone who likes to take pic.. i think u might want to consider the samsung inno8.. its 8 maga pixel wor..

It is done!

2008-11-19T00:28:00.003+08:00

hmmm.. finally i can say!!! "today is not a tiring day".. hee.. yeah~! slept till 10.. studied a little here and there.. take a little nap here and there.. then its time to work before i knew it.. sob..

Delphine introduced her bf to me.. Mark.. nice to know u~ not bad wor.. almost everyday see u waiting for ur gf to finish work.. hee.. just like me.. i will do the same too! but first, i need to get a gf... hmmmmmmmmmmm....... hmph~

Jung Won was working with me today.. its so interesting working with her.. Koreans and Singaporeans are really really different man~ enjoy making fun of her.. BUT do not appreciate the splashing of soup water at me~!!! hmmm.. finally got the chance to talk to u properly after that incident.. thank you for being so understanding... i didn't meant to hurt u.. but i don't want to lie to u.. i really appreciate everything u done for me and my family.. its all my fault.. it was nv about u.. give me some time k~ but still.. i can't promise u anything.. sorry..

my boss finally came down to talk to me.. oooohhhhh.. u are angry that i always close the shop to go walk walk.. hee.. don't worry.. i will change.. i don't really like talking about my mistakes too.. thanks for being so understanding during the period when my aunt passed away..

didn't get to skype with my dad today due to the washing of the yogurt machine.. sob... but pi pi.. i know u felt my wishes for u! Happy belated birthday daddy~

oh ya!! i nearly forget.. seriously.. i don't know how this happened.. but it really surprised me.. what happened was.....

before Jung Won came.. i was really really really hungry.. i haven't got anything to eat for the whole day.. but i can't close the shop to go buy something to eat.. cos there were customers in the shop.. and its really rude to ask them to leave.. so i was thinking in my heart that how nice it will be if there is something else other then yogurt to eat.. at that instant, i am serious.. at that instant.. this girl from Coffee Bean came in to my shop and just gave me 2 really delicious chocolate cake! oh ya.. i was also craving for chocolate.. so WTH right? hee.. below are the evidences that i am not lying!!

Congrets "aunty"~

2008-11-18T15:30:00.005+08:00

i am so glad for u.. finally.. after everything u been through, its not wasted.. hope this happiness of urs is here to stay this time.. don't think too much.. its a very big step already.. don't rush..

finally the loser club is officially closed~ u go girl.. fight for and treasure ur happiness.. don't take it for granted wor.. i know u nv had.. and u nv will.. actually thats for him.. haha..

thanks for being there when i needed a friend.. really appreciate it.. thanks for nursing me back to what i am now.. don't think its possible without u.. hope we will not only turn to each other when sad things happen to us only.. i still need some positive energy from u k!!

and trust me.. i am not rushing... nv gonna make the same mistake i been making..

hee.. thinking back of those time when we are stuck in that dark, dirty, moldy and cold corner.. i can't help but smile.. no matter what the future holds, lets promise each other nv nv ever return to that place.. All the best!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!

2008-11-18T02:25:00.005+08:00

papa.. thank you so much... for everything u did and doing for this family.. for always being there for me.. there is really nothing more i can ask for from a dad than what u are giving me.. i really really miss u.. i pray that God will be with u whether u go and bless everything that u do.. thanks alot dad.. i love u~ i really want to hug u now.. i am not ashamed to admit that.. i am always a baby to u.. sob.. i really miss u... sell the car and stay in singapore can? sob... sorry pipi.. let u spend ur birthday alone overseas.. my heart is always by ur side.. really..

once again.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY~

Steaming~~~~~~

2008-11-17T21:03:00.004+08:00

hee.. thanks for cheering me up by going steamboat-ing with me~!! wow.. didn't know that such a simple stall has so good and much to offer.. nv judge a stall from it appearance i see...

great steamboat.. seriously~

WARNING - following pic require parental guidance.. to prevent u from licking ur screen~~

"come see the CCTV.. u didn't say u don't want De Kua!" hee.. i love it!

"Meat BALLS~ WOOOOoooOOOOooOO!! more more more!" (damn.. do i sound like a De?)

hmmm.. my fav also.. sob.. everything also my fav~

"1 is enough~"

"enough! Lets start!"

i am amazed~

2008-11-17T17:57:00.003+08:00

i am really sad.. i realise how weak i am at Principle Of Accounting today.. the paper seems fairly easy.. yet without my notes, i totally didn't know which should go under the P&L statement and what goes under the balance sheet.. sob.. sob...

its my fault for not studying much for it also.. hmph.. will not allow something like this to happen again...

after my sad sad POA lecture, had a half an hour break before my Stats lecture starts.. i was really hungry.. yet i didn't feel like eating.. hee.. saw this huge dental thingy parking outside my sch.. felt like asking them to fix my broken braces..

i am really amazed at how easy stats is.. hmmm.. how can anyone use such a long time to explain what a histogram is? its not that the lecturer is not good, i think he is a nice person and a good teacher.. i guess its just how the lessons are planned.. for ppl who really don't have a background in Stats.. in the end i decided to leave after break.. since the following chapter is probability~ i will do the assignment! don't scold me kkk~~~

while driving home today, i realised how hypocritical Singapore drivers are!!! i was on the highway rushing home on the extreme right lane.. duh.. suddenly i realise all the cars behind me are moving to the second lane.. i didn't have to wonder for long.. suddenly.. in their shiny yellow armor, were 3 tp bikes.. they are not even rushing! their siren are not even on.. don't have to do something so carry balls please! haiz.. Singaporeans~ anyway, i am a Singapore driver too right.. so its ok to be hypocritical right?.. hee.. i signaled left and moved out~ ^^

i looked so red today.. prepare for a little change of skin in the next few days.. hmmmmm...

fun fun funnnnnnnn day~

2008-11-16T21:31:00.006+08:00

hmmm.. finally stepping out of my cocoon.. hmm... didn't expect it to be that fun.. i know it has always been fun.. but NOT THAT FUN!!!

decided not to drive there.. finding a lot on a Sunday is really not an easy task.. and parking fee can really be a bitch sometimes.. GOING PUBLIC! miss public transportation.. when i am crossing the overhead bridge near my house to get to the bus stop, i suddenly realise how long i didn't use that already.. wow.... time really flies...

went to vivo, had our lunch, then sentooooosssssaaa~~ a whole day of sun, sand and sea.. played beach volley.. twisted my ankle.. still continue playing.. hee.. FUN~

took shower.. wow.. really crowded man.. decide to use the open shower instead.. hee.. shall spare u all the details..

when on my way home.. got this really huge guy keep falling asleep on my shoulder!! arG~.. eat my toufu.. haaha...

it has been quite sometime since i last visited sentosa.. many memories are still fresh in mind.. walking the path along the beach.. can't help but start thinking.. millions of what if.. looking at my new group of companies.. i decided to not let those emotions consume me..

nv had so much fun for a long time for quite some time.. look towards the future and stop looking back~ my heart tells me..

"regrets of life are like cologne.. only to be smelled.. not swallow.."

another another tiring day~

2008-11-15T15:24:00.005+08:00

hmmmm.. why am i so tired everyday.. guess thats got to do with my age.. sob.. i am turning 22 next year.. wth.. sounded so much older than 21.. sweet sweet 21.. bye bye..

got a hair cut.. didn't get my usual spiky hairstyle this time.. keep it a little longer this time? the barber thought i was 17 years old.. hee.. in the end charged my student price of 9 dollars only.. its good to look young after all..

jung won called me today.. told me what my boss's problem with us is.. hmm.. kk.. actually i don't really need the job also.. though i enjoy the yogurt and the company there.. i don't need to withstand such insults..

went lunar after that.. was great.. and apparently, they felt that a bottle of vodka is not enough to get me high, they got me a glass of Bacardi 151 double shot.. wow.. thats it for the night.. hmmm.. and i got to know some nice ppl too.. Harry (manager of Lunar and the new upcoming MOS and a really great guy), Rachel (hey.. not all marist are asshole ok! ha.. at least i am not...), Sheryln, Dewn.... errrmmm.... hmmmm.. arrr.... mmmmm... all the rest.. hee.. sorry~ ^^ will get to know u all better next time k!

"great performance..."

"GREATER PERFORMANCE! hee"

"LLLLLLLLLLLLLUUUUUUUUUUUUUUNNNNNNNNNNNNNAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRR"

"where did u get this poster? ops...."

"1 bottle? u need more than that to bring me down.. whhaahahaa"

another tiring day~

2008-11-14T15:43:00.013+08:00

wooooo!! finally home from sch~ sob.. 8.30 lecture all the way till 3.. tired.. not bad.. the test is ok~ and the teacher even make it easier by making it a open book test.. damn.. burn midnight oil for nothing~

saw this guy sitting alone.. far far far away from me.. he seems like a really nice guy.. manage to get his name.. Domedic.. made the effort to go up to him to know him.. do u know how rare is it for me to approach ppl? i am such a shy guy.. but.. i really feel that its so sad to sit alone in lectures.. i nv did and i don't think anyone deserve that too.. next week i will sit with u! and i can introduce my friends to u too.. don't worry.. we won't bite... at least i won't.. i don't know about them~~ i think they won...'t... nah.. won't la.. haha

"seriously.. go get a hair cut or something.. I PAY!! hee..(btw, thats not me.. its a fellow unknown student sitting in front of me....)"

"Messy handwriting.. but.. at least i am not slping.. hee.. PBF!! why dont u just kill me!!"

hmmm.. busy day..

2008-11-13T23:14:00.003+08:00

finally home after work.. decide to come out with a list of picture to show my working process.. hee.. its good to find things to do.. time pass faster this way..

was quite down today at work.. my sincere sms was ignored by someone.. was really just trying to cheer her up.. good heart no have good hug.. felt so insulted.. nvm.. i will not be bothered anymore..

Dewn, thanks for the smile face yogurt u made.. hmmmm.. even though not much creativity, but thanks.. haha.. kidding about the not much creativity part.. its beautiful~

tml morning still have morning lecture... and then test immediately after that.. need to mug.. can't slp even though i can barely open my eyes now...

keeping urself busy is the best way to combat depression~

yup yup.. i will do it k.. i will come out with a list of things to try out when i am free also.. don't worry~~

haiz.. conclusion.. don't be busybody.. yup.. i get it i get it.. u all are right that i should nv had bothered..

First~

2008-11-13T16:02:00.002+08:00

hmmm.. just need a channel to vent my frustration about Principle of Banking and Finance! ha.. kidding.. life is getting so busy~ need something like this to stop and think.. don't want to get lost in the flow of life~

anyway.. just packed my room.. so messy.. how was i able to stand it before today? ha.. threw away many many stuffs.. need to make space for new things to come!

sob.. need to go to work soon.. having trouble with my boss.. i really did my part.. what else he wants?! i love my job.. i love the yogurt.. i just hate the boss..

really like this song that kaori introduced to me.. Better in time.. hmmm..

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the past
I believe it
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

yes i will! hee~