Friday, January 24, 2014


Passing of a Great man.

Today marks the end of the 3 days wake of Jeslin's Grandfather.

Though i didn't have much chance to get to know this man better, i truly respected him from the bottom of my heart.

Even at his age of 80, he had no problems communicating with his children and grandchildren.

He was well loved.

I remembered there was a period of time when i just got together with Jeslin, we visited his house almost every Saturday without fail.

We would play MJ, sometimes with him sometimes without. He was really funny in his own way. never allow a dull moment.

Many times through out the wake, you can see how evident his impact he has on so many people lives.

Even I wasn't spared from the overwhelming of emotions.

Jeslin, needless to say, was really devastated.

This loss is too much to bare for anyone.

We were at the wake every night. We sort of covered all the night shifts. All three nights inviting Samuel and Thomas over to play MJ. Its part of our Chinese Tradition. Someone have to be awake at any point of time during the wake to make sure that the incenses were burning. And what activity better to keep you awake other than Mj.

But it was still very tiring. We would go at about 7pm and slp at about 10 am. then the whole cycle repeats again.

Looking at the previous post, i realized how small those issues I was facing just one year back. Should i be glad that such issue seems to minor to even affect my mood, or should i be sad that the adversity we are facing now is so much greater than those we faced earlier.

This is the start of a new year, yet it has already been a really eventful one.

I am going for an operation for my knee sometime soon. i am already on Hospitalization leave for about a month. Life without work can be boring some time. But, i have to be thankful that there is such a break for such a period of time.

I will be getting ROM on 1st March 2014. That is about 1 month from today. Excited. Its time to flip to another chapter of my life. My flat should be arriving soon. The sooner the better. Can't wait to see it.

I hope all the unhappy things have passed and only the happy ones awaits us for the remaining year.

Gong Gong. You are missed.  

Posted by qi at 1:09 AM


Wednesday, January 9, 2013


Pride?

Woke up really early today to head down to Le Festa showflat today. Cos Sean insisted that we should meet at 9am. Despite me telling him that it was too early.

He was being bossy, keep reminding me to be there on time. i hinted that it was him who always gave last minute excuses or late. 

I arrived on time.  

Received his sms. telling me that he was talking to a potential buyer who he met on the train and holding another project flyer.

(Who the hell will be holding a flyer of another project 8 plus in the morning. knew that he was bullshiting but didnt bother to pursue further.)

when he arrived, i just asked him jokingly, "what time already". and he got pissed off. told me that he had to come today was due to my stupidity (he insisted that it was my mistake that we didnt close the deal yesterday)

i was really angry.

but Sean was in my team. under the same team leader. will be seeing him really often. or should i say that all our duties were planned together.

i am not in the wrong. he was indeed late. for about an hour. and i know for sure the reason he gave was a lie. Why should i apologise?

i called him. asked where is he. told me that he was at a nearby coffee shop. 

on the way there. i prayed for strength.

Apologied to him when i arrived. 

i guess there are times that u dont do whats right. but whats necessary

i learnt.




Posted by qi at 12:56 AM


Tuesday, January 8, 2013


1 year

Was just looking for things to do on my computer when i happened to remember that i had a blog. Have i should say. Since its still mine.

Like finding a long lost diary, i was brough back to the time those post were written. Those posts actually helped me fill up the blanks in my memory for those years that sneak by.

Its a great feeling, seeing myself freed from some issue that i was struggling years back. This again proven 2 sentence to be true.

 "What doesnt kills u, makes u stronger"

 "Time heals everything. Just give time some time"

Thank goodness. That my life is not that sad that only bad memories were brought back.

So many things and people have changed. Even for myself. What i believed and wanted in life in the past doesnt seems that important to me now.

I will continue doing this. (Writing my blog)

So someday.... just like today.... i will remember

Posted by qi at 2:08 AM


Wednesday, January 27, 2010


Bad bad weekend~

had a really bad weekend~~ seriously.. sometimes u just wonder.. how bad can things be.. and guess what.. it just got worst...

loss 70 dollars in mj...

thinking nothing could be worst..

went out and realised that i just got a ticket for parking my car at "No parking" lot..

50 dollars for that ticket...

Priceless: Offense "failure to obey road sign "No parking""

lol.. i am so so broke this month man~

thank god its new year and birthday next month..

COME ON~! THROW WHAT U HAVE IN STALL AT ME BEFORE FEB STARTS!!

hmmm... if possible.. dont throw k~

Posted by qi at 12:05 AM


Monday, January 11, 2010


reminded that i actually have a blog~

haha.. like the title suggested.. i was reminded by my gf that i ACTUALLY have a blog..

so i guess i might as well just post something here..

judging from the last entry to my tagbox.. i guess i dont have any readers anymore.. but.. who cares.. lol~ its MINE blog.. haha.. i will just post as and when i want.. haha...

first of all.. HAPPY NEW YEAR!! hmmm.. not CNY.. i mean a real new year~ 2010~

2009 went by really fast.. before i realise.. its already over.. hmmm..

i guess its always fast.. cos the time u take to recall all the memory in 2009 is definitely faster than the actually time pass.. i dont know if u understand what i am say.. i mean.. thinking back... is faster...

stepping into 2010.. havent set my new year resolution yet.. will get it done soon..

haha.. i cant help but mentioning.. recently been playing alot of mj.. actually just came back from one session with my gf aunt.. won.. 60 dollars.. lol.. that increase our winning steak of 400 plus? haha.. i am not sure.. well done.. keep it up.. haha

Posted by qi at 12:40 AM


Friday, July 10, 2009


looking back~

wow.. it has been ages since i last blog.. hmmm.. in a blink, the holiday is half gone!

hmmm.. i guess to be positive, i should say there is still half left of our holiday..

erm.. both seems quite sad to me.. sob.. cos no matter how i say it.. sch opening is drawing closer and closer..

lots happened to me.. since the day i last blog.. was it after my trip to bintan or not... hmmm..

anyway.. my trip to bintan was SUPER fun.. can it be counted as a honeymoon? ha.. the sea was CLEAR.. i really mean clear.. i can see where i am stepping on in the sea.. can u believe it.. we had our own private pool outside our villa.. we had ppl coming to our pouch to bbq for us.. ha!

oh ya! i took off my braces on the 1st of july. YEAH! but when i thought thats the end of my torture, there comes the retainer.. my goodness.. its more irritating than the braces.. only good point.. it can be taken off.. whahahaa.. i am not wearing them now.. i know i know.. i will put them on soon..

yesterday was my 4th month anni with my baby.! yeah.. had a really great time with u..

a good relationship brings out the best in u..

heard that from someone.. hmm.. dont really remember who..

Posted by qi at 1:42 AM


Monday, June 8, 2009


hmmm...

wow.. so long nv update.. looking back at my previous posts, its a totally different me.. cos.. EXAMs ARE OVER!!

ha.. so many things have changed.. hmmmm.. so many things happened.. but i am so lazy to blog about them, and i am on the phone...

so~

i am alive~

guess that sums up everything? ha

Posted by qi at 4:22 PM


Thursday, April 16, 2009


one word

Stress

Posted by qi at 11:07 PM


Monday, April 6, 2009


sudden surge of emotions

hmm.. as i was preparing to leave home for another self study session.. had a suddenly surge of emotions.. that i just need to get it off my chest..

To those.. who saw me as i am.. who held on to me when i am falling.. who laugh with me when i am glad.. who stood by me when standing was not easy for me..

i didn't forget..

i won't forget...

don't worry.. i am fine.. better than fine now actually.. just bi guan-ing.. not dead.. trying to find a better self within.. trying to look at myself and see what needs improving, what needs to go...

nv had so much time on my own..

u people out there.. if u really find it hard to keep up with the pace of reality, or if u find it hard to love someone.. its time for u to start falling in love with urself..

once u learn and know how to love urself the way u should be loved, its not hard to find the one that can love u the way u want to be loved..

ha.. abit chim huh.. just try to keep up ya.. hee..

kk.. need to go study le.. haiz......

Posted by qi at 11:10 AM


Saturday, March 21, 2009


AH MENG.. my cousin

hmmm.. recently.. i am glad to realise that my beloved cousin is reading my blog..

hmm.. so i am going to dedicate this entry to him..

now i will start off by giving a brief introduction about him..




Name : Desmond Goh (aka Ah Meng, aka Malay boy, aka sausage boy, aka handsome *this one add to make him happy only..* )

Age : 22 this year

BDay : 11 August'87

Status : Single.. *idk counted not.. ex gf can come stay, slp, play MJ at his house.. hmm.. don't know what youngster nowadays thinking.. so complicated.. anyway.. just try ur luck, u nv know maybe he will like u? hmmm.. oh ya.. please be 24 years and older.. he prefer older women.. thanks..

Hobbie : pool, swim, bowling, badminton, Sing song..*its ur loss if u haven't heard him sing.. POWER!.. of cos.. i am kidding~ -_-

Location : West side of Singapore.. *please contact me for his exact address.. please take note a small admin of 20SGD will be charged though.

Favourite Passtime : queueing at poly clinic.. *he really REALLY enjoy it.. u should see the passion in his eyes when he is queueing.. no one comes close...

Contact no. : 812766** *please contact me for the last 2 digit.. please note that a small admin charge of 0.5SGD will be charged though.


hmmm.. even though he has been training hard and secretly in bowling and badminton, trying to win me, he nv came close.. sometimes.. u really need to have abit of talent.. just like me.. ^^

hope after this brief introduction, u all will get a better and closer...

any interested applicants.. please send me a copy of ur particular and a picture of ur CURRENT self.. please don't send those that u look really good.. but actually its already 100 years ago.. i will get back to u if u are qualified.. thanks..

NO REPLY MEANS.. U ARE UGLY, OLD, DISGUSTING AND NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR HIM!! so please don't bug me and ask me why so long nv reply.. i can't say this to a girl face to face.. so don't put me in a difficult position..

thanks for ur time.. ^^

Posted by qi at 9:56 AM


Tuesday, February 24, 2009


Feedbacks~~

haha.. i am receiving negative feedback about my lack of updates.. hmmm.. ok ok.. here i am blogging again~~

hmmm.. where should i start...

Jong Won is back in Singapore! haha.. came to yoguru.. thank goodness i wasn't there at that time, i quited! hee.. or else i think i would have dug a hole just to hide my face.. had the shock of my life when my when my colleague suddenly called me.. "hey qi! i saw ur Ex Girlfriend! She came to look for you!" -_-

hmmm.. what else.. exam coming~~ prelims.. stressed.. trying hard to focus on my studies.. no more fooling around weiqi!!

hmmm.. studying econs, POA and PBF is like a traffic jam to me.. moving so slowly.. when can i ever finish revising them? haiz~~ i need help.. gonna search for help.. i must!

err....

i love sashimi!

hmmm...

oh ya! my car is brand new now! haha.. after that tiny accident, that guy paid for my repairs.. and the uncle of that shop, being a super nice guy, repaired the other damages on my car as well! haha.. so happy so happy.. even the one that i knocked when i just got my license..

oh ya!! and i am no more a "triangle" driver!! yeah!! time flies, its already been a year since i got my license.. such a eventful year for me..

my sister failed twice her driving test.. haiz.. omg omg.. thats like 600 dollars already~ hmmm.. what can i do with 600 dollars.......... alot.. haha!

life is such an amazing thing..

when u expect something to come, it nv comes, but when u least expected it, here it comes knocking~~ *knock knock.... whose there? haha.. omg! i am so lame! *slap slap

i am so thankful~

Posted by qi at 11:14 AM


Tuesday, February 10, 2009


a picture speaks a thousand words








Posted by qi at 11:22 AM



happy birthday.. ^^

hmmm.. wow.. it seems that i really not been updating.. ha~ sorry.. life been.. busy..

hmmm.. accident.. birthday.. stressed for upcoming prelims.. parties.. chinese new year.. dad came and go.. about there..

ha.. when there are really so many things happening, it became really hard to keep track.. will try to upload some pic in the morning later.. ha. for now.. its time to join shine shine to slp.. hee...

saw 2 of my friends in sch today.. hand in hand.. ha.. the moment they saw me, shocked.. let go.. so cute.. kk.. if u all still don't wanna make it public, i shall not list any names. hee.. so sweet..

love is an amazing thing.. isn't it..

Posted by qi at 2:30 AM


Thursday, January 29, 2009


torture

had the weirdest dream yesterday night.. hmm.. why would i dreamt about that? about what u told me in the dream..

affected my whole day..

depressed...

Posted by qi at 5:12 PM



HAPPY CNY~~

hmmm.. got some feedbacks about my lack of updates.. haha.. for the first time, faced the crisis of losing some of my very few selective readers.. haha.. better do something about it.. thats why.. here i am again.. hmm.. after like..... so long..

anyway..

chinese new year...

drinking.. alot..

majong..

poker..

gaming..

lack of sleep.. and u...

family..

hmm.. this should sum up what happened other the last few days..

Posted by qi at 1:33 AM


Monday, January 19, 2009


eh...

Heard this song from my friend's blog.. quote this interesting phrase from the song~


Not that I don't care about you
Just that things got so complicated
Eh eh

All I can say is eh eh

sometimes... its so true huh.. hmmm.. what am i talking about? ha.. just some really really random thoughts..

Posted by qi at 9:27 AM



steak and wine~

hmmmm....

lazy....

sleepy.. hee...

other time k~ night!

Update (19/1/2009)

hmmm.. finally got the time to fill in this blog entry.. haha.. was so tired yesterday.. didn't really feel like doing anything.. hmmm..

Sat.. Mandy's 21st BIRTHDAY! ha.. GREAT PARTY! hee.. cos of the food maybe.. really love the steak! BEST! should have more.. hmmm.. maybe 2 portion? whahahaa.. finally tried steak with wine.. YUP! they served wine there too! RED red wine.. hmmm.. heard that red wine goes well with steak.. 2 hands UP!!

Sun.. Family day!! decided to be a nice good boy and spend some time with my family.. lunch with mum.. still went out FOR A WHILE in the evening.. hmmm... hard to stay home the whole day.. but was a really relaxing day~~ love it

Prelims coming...


damn~

Posted by qi at 1:44 AM


Friday, January 16, 2009


delusional

have u ever meet ppl who are so in their own world.. that even though what they did was obviously wrong, they still confidently think and speak as though they are right?!

had a really relax day at home.. tried out this new online game that meng intro.. yet he didn't play.. watch don't know what house of greed 2.. some drama..

after that its work for me.. hmmm. today i was a really good boy.. never brought any cubee-art to make at work.. instead i brought my PBF assignment.. and i am amazed.. i managed to finish it..

guess i am not having enough rest recently.. today i kept feeling that i am not in my body.. kept feeling like i am another person watching myself doing what i am doing.. hmmm.. ANYONE understands what i am trying to say here?

kk.. back to those really delusional ppl.. after work, i accompanied my sis to one of her tuition kid's house to "collect" her pay.. that !@#$# dragged payment for months already.. about 400 plus dollars..

when we arrived, the lights were off, window tightly shut... at first we knock gently on the door.. for about 10 mins.. no one answered.. pissed*

knock on the door too soft i guess.. went for the window instead.. hmmm.. quite satisfied with the noise it created.. neighbour all came out to watch whats going on.. and we wasted no time explaining to them..

finally that @!#$$#!@# opened the door.. let us in.. talked to us a hell lot of bullshit.. i am really tired to blog it all down.. i just managed to calm down, don't want to be enraged again..

anyway.. he promised us payment on monday night.. he better comes out with the money.. or else... call police.. hee..

don't mess with my family members.. cos i will get really upset.. u won't like it when i am upset..

Posted by qi at 1:06 AM


Wednesday, January 14, 2009


new addition~

wow.. didnt know that hello kitty is so difficult to make~~ hmmm.. but quite happy that it looks good.. its meant as a gift.. so.. must be of a higher standard then those that i made for myself.. hope she will like it~ ^^

here are some pics of them..




Posted by qi at 12:40 AM


Monday, January 12, 2009


happy healthy day~!

hmmm.. what a tiring day.. had lessons from 8.30am till 3pm.. stats is so easy! haha.. hmmm.. principle of accounting was alright.. there will be a test next week.. better start preparing..

after that decided to look from meng for a late lunch.. how i know he is such a pig! refused to wake up.. haha..

after that, we suddenly decided to play badminton~! aRG!! i cannot believe i actually lose to teddytubby!! i swear he must have taken some banned drugs!

healthy healthy!!

haha..

i was really happy this morning.. i ran out of jeans to wear.. out of desperation, i dug out the old jeans.. i fit in perfectly!! yeah!! hmmm.. i can save lots of money on new year clothing! hee~~

last few days.. i kept having the same dream over and over again.. God.. i beg u.. stop this.. stop torturing me..

Posted by qi at 10:54 PM